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[:+) [:+)>> After such a long time (>a year) Hanneke suddenly sends all the books I [:+)>> still had at her house back+an artwork I made. I still miss her so much, [:+)>> but she’s a real bitch; she sends me back the books & NOT ONE WORD, NOT [:+)>> ONE LETTRE! AM I WORTH SO LITTLE? [:+)((((((((((BAS))))))))))))) im sorry, she was a shit to do that. i know [:+)sometimes misery likes a little company so check this out… chris (yes him [:+)again) hasnt talked to me at all since 2 days before my surgery… and he knows [:+)that i was in the hospital for 5 days because the surgeons cut something they Oh no! What did they do to you, Chelly? [:+)shouldnt have, and get this… tonight i got an instant message from him [:+)reading : " if you have any decency left in you dont use my calling card [:+)anymore" [:+)that was it, that was all he said. i just clicked cancel and blew him off, [:+)FIRST TIME EVER IVE BEEN STRONG ENOUGH TO DO THAT. after all weve been thru I am proud of you! I know it’s hard, you are going through so much…. [:+)that instant message was very thoughtless. no ’so how are you feeling’ ’sorry [:+)you were almost killed in surgery’ , not even a simple ‘hi’ nothing of the [:+)sort… just him ,him and his precious goddamned money. makes me want to [:+)spit.. ya know bas, i followed him around like a love sick puppy for a fuckin [:+)year! a YEAR of my life. no more. im never going back to that kind of crap, [:+)and can you believe the way ive sniveled and cried in here just languishing [:+)away without him? pathetic. ive made up MY mind now. and i know in 2 years [:+)time, maybe less, it wont be me who’s sorry. get mad bas. its the only way to [:+)get over it. infact, lets hope henecke and chris hook up… they sound perfect [:+)for eachother. [:+)you are a beautiful person , dont take any shit. [:+)love, [:+)chell [:+) [:+)>Some "normals" are wonderful people who can deal with us and our [:+)>condition. Most "normals" can’t see past their bank accounts and see us [:+)>as a burdon. [:+) [:+)>If your "friend" can’t deal with who you are; you are better [:+)>off without her. [:+) [:+)solid advice. [:+)–tink Keith
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You go, girlfriend!! Amy p.s. Feeling better??
snip. im never going back to that kind of crap, – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text ->and can you believe the way ive sniveled and cried in here just languishing >away without him? pathetic. ive made up MY mind now.
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keith….. the doc somehow ‘accidentally’ cut thru my bowel. not a good thing cuz it releases ecoli into your abdominal cavity and we all know what ecoli can do. so it was a mess. it hurts like hell and im recovering REALLY slowly. lots of pain killers. they sent me home with percodan and demerol. so lets hope i dont get depressed , huh? amy…..((((((amy)))))) thanks. im really trying to grab myself and shake myself. how niave can i be to think that he could love me if he cant put his anger aside for 5 minutes to find out if im dead or alive. ya know? i just cant understand that… we loved eachother and gave eachother a year of our lives and he cant drop his anger long enough to find out what in the hell happend to me at the hospital that could keep me there for 5 fuckin days. i will never understand that. all i can say is it changed me. it hurt me, and NEVERMORE. ((eap)) chell
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>> After such a long time (>a year) Hanneke suddenly sends all the books I > still had at her house back+an artwork I made. I still miss her so much, > but she’s a real bitch; she sends me back the books & NOT ONE WORD, NOT > ONE LETTRE! AM I WORTH SO LITTLE?
((((((((((BAS))))))))))))) im sorry, she was a shit to do that. i know sometimes misery likes a little company so check this out… chris (yes him again) hasnt talked to me at all since 2 days before my surgery… and he knows that i was in the hospital for 5 days because the surgeons cut something they shouldnt have, and get this… tonight i got an instant message from him reading : " if you have any decency left in you dont use my calling card anymore" that was it, that was all he said. i just clicked cancel and blew him off, FIRST TIME EVER IVE BEEN STRONG ENOUGH TO DO THAT. after all weve been thru that instant message was very thoughtless. no ’so how are you feeling’ ’sorry you were almost killed in surgery’ , not even a simple ‘hi’ nothing of the sort… just him ,him and his precious goddamned money. makes me want to spit.. ya know bas, i followed him around like a love sick puppy for a fuckin year! a YEAR of my life. no more. im never going back to that kind of crap, and can you believe the way ive sniveled and cried in here just languishing away without him? pathetic. ive made up MY mind now. and i know in 2 years time, maybe less, it wont be me who’s sorry. get mad bas. its the only way to get over it. infact, lets hope henecke and chris hook up… they sound perfect for eachother. you are a beautiful person , dont take any shit. love, chell >Some "normals" are wonderful people who can deal with us and our >condition. Most "normals" can’t see past their bank accounts and see us >as a burdon. >If your "friend" can’t deal with who you are; you are better >off without her.
solid advice. –tink
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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> keith….. the doc somehow ‘accidentally’ cut thru my bowel. not a good thing > cuz it releases ecoli into your abdominal cavity and we all know what ecoli can > do. so it was a mess. it hurts like hell and im recovering REALLY slowly. > lots of pain killers. they sent me home with percodan and demerol. so lets > hope i dont get depressed , huh? > amy…..((((((amy)))))) thanks. im really trying to grab myself and shake > myself. how niave can i be to think that he could love me if he cant put his > anger aside for 5 minutes to find out if im dead or alive. ya know? i just > cant understand that… we loved eachother and gave eachother a year of our > lives and he cant drop his anger long enough to find out what in the hell > happend to me at the hospital that could keep me there for 5 fuckin days. i > will never understand that. all i can say is it changed me. it hurt me, and > NEVERMORE. > ((eap)) > chell
Chell, I’m kinda new here, but I’d like to give you a hug if I may <grin> ((((((((chell))))))))) <is that the ways its done?> I hope you feel much better real soon. Ralph
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>Chell, I’m kinda new here, but I’d like to give you a hug if I may <grin> >((((((((chell))))))))) <is that the ways its done?> >I hope you feel much better real soon. Ralph
((((((((((((((((ralph))))))))))))))))) yes, that is just how it is done. and you did it quite nicely 
thank you. love, chell –tink
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Bas. Perhaps she’s hurting too. — Kath From here on my branch I can choose to plunge or soar. I think I shall sit a while longer. – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> After such a long time (>a year) Hanneke suddenly sends all the books I > still had at her house back+an artwork I made. I still miss her so much, > but she’s a real bitch; she sends me back the books & NOT ONE WORD, NOT > ONE LETTRE! AM I WORTH SO LITTLE? I guess… > DE DIGITALE STAD
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After such a long time (>a year) Hanneke suddenly sends all the books I still had at her house back+an artwork I made. I still miss her so much, but she’s a real bitch; she sends me back the books & NOT ONE WORD, NOT ONE LETTRE! AM I WORTH SO LITTLE? I guess… DE DIGITALE STAD
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> After such a long time (>a year) Hanneke suddenly sends all the books I > still had at her house back+an artwork I made. I still miss her so much, > but she’s a real bitch; she sends me back the books & NOT ONE WORD, NOT > ONE LETTRE! AM I WORTH SO LITTLE? I guess… > DE DIGITALE STAD
No my friend. You are a wonderful person, from what I have seen here on the support group. It sounds like your "friend" is a real bitch. My bitch divorced me after 18 years of marriage. To this day, I do not know the real reason. The divorce complaint said "extreme mental cruelity" and the worst example of mental cruelity she could find was "his face gets red when he is angry and that causes me to fear for my safety." The reaL problem, according to my attorny and common ssence was "he doesn’t earn enough money because of his BP condition." Now I am totally disabled, and my doctor and court evidence states that my Ex’s behavior toward me is what pushed me over the line to total disability. (No, I don’t really believe that. BP is a brain chemical thing.) You know that’s another thing I just realized. I’ve been BP 30+ years. I’ve been to pdocs, therapists, social workers, read many books and articles, even took psychology in college as an adjunct to an education major. And aside from my very subjective knowledge of what it does to me; I don’t know a dang thing about BP. On yes, I have a chart that shows synapses and little circles and Xes, and SSRI filling in the holes… but what the heck does that mean? I know that seritonin and dopimine levels in my case are all screwed up. SO, how come SSRIs instead of trying to synthisise seritonin either directly or indirectly? OOps, I went on a side trip there. Sorry. My point was this. You seem to be a wonderful person, who, like the rest of us, have the misfortune of having a certain medical condition that we have no control over. Some "normals" are wonderful people who can deal with us and our condition. Most "normals" can’t see past their bank accounts and see us as a burdon. If your "friend" can’t deal with who you are; you are better off without her. And IF someone is a low life piece of shit, its a loved one that put you out in the trash because of your medical condition. Been there, done that, and it sucks. (And there ain’t a damned thing you can do about it) Keep your chin up, my friend. There is a friend out there for you. You just have to find her. Or as I say about myself to ladies I meet… "Kiss this frog <I’m of french ancestery>, I might be your prince." <grin>. (Warped sence of humor coutesy of BP condition) Ralph
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